Lim Guo Hong

I guess that would be the way though it could be very weird and it might not reach the effect. If it does passed the first wave, would the second wave be successful?

Everytime i think of my parents leaving me ( they die ), I am very scare. Very very scare. I know I am not the only guy in the whole world where the parents will eventually die but I just dread the feeling.

I learnt not to trust people easily. I learnt ( and still learning ) how to keep your cards and be sure not to show out everyting to everyone. Even to classmates, friends. You do not know what they have under their smile sometimes. They can act to help you but eventually backstab you. This is very tiring. I am very tired sometimes. There is only 1 person I can trust. I can really tell everything to. But slowly, he is drifting away from me. ( It might just be my imagination ), he will have more friends which might treat him better than i do. ( I am angry at him sometimes for no reason ). Evenually he will have his girlfriend. I don’t mind. I just want to have the feeling that I have someone to rely on if anything happen. Everytime he calls me kor, i felt relieved because he treats me like his family members. Again and again, he re-assured me, i can go to him if i am alone but sometimes, i see no point to. I dunno why. Calling me “kor” is simple but his action is another thing. It might appear that he “needs” me but in fact, i am the one who needs him more.

I indulge myself in alot of projects and work. Working and working and endless working will make me forget of everything sometimes. This, in return, made me more tired. That day, i “accidently” spilled out my feelings to Ronnie and Danielle, they sugggested that I should grab the chance and go out with my family more often. I know but sometimes I just cant bring myself to do it. I dunno why. The last family dinner we have together is 2-3 years ago? ( In the past 5 years, we had 2 ). Sometimes being with them makes me think how it will feel when I am alone. Damn. But i need to do something about it.

In the past, when I go to Wushu, I feel more relax, i feel like i got nothing to do. I feel … just very relax. I will forget about things which I worry. But now, when I go back wushu, i have one more worry. I am afraid to tear my ACL, MCL, MM, LM again. Its so painful… Damn I am scare already. When an athlete is scare, he cant break his limit anymore. When I go back wushu. I am scare coaches will scold me for not trying my best. Well I don’t dare to. I am timid. I am lousy but I do not want to them. Thats why i avoid wushu now BUT then again wushu my only form of relaxation have became my worry now.

I like to look at kids. Why? cause they always have they do something wrong or do not want anything or when they want a thing, what they do is just to cry. Simple.. Cry. When i feel their innocent smile. I always wish I can be like them. I know I cant but I am just trying hard to “appreciate” it and imagine I am one of them.

I SHOULD FIND A GIRLFRIEND SOON SO I WILL NOT BE ALONE ANYMORE. I WANT THE FEELING TO LOVE SOMEONE AND TO BE LOVED.

Why am I posting this to show everyone how lousy I am? No one will be reading this anyway.

This is the last photo which I took with my family.

I just realised, I am reading how to become a better brother.

Finally It is reinstated.

Just realised its been so long ago since i blogged.

I have not been feeling well. Supposed to go and support Jasper for his performance but bleh, have not been feeling too well lately.. I even cough out blood this morning. Hai….

I need to find out how I can write an imagine with C++ so I can do something to my image on Windows Mobile.

Flying to Cambodia end of this week. =)

Chirs Chin, Developer Marketing Director, Microsoft Singapore came to MSP (Microsoft Student Partner) meet on Saturday to give us a quick talk on Windows Mobile 6.5 (http://wmdevasia.wordpress.com/2009/08/22/aug-22nd-2009/), abit on Windows Mobile Marketplace and asked us to submit applications for certification if we can. Certainly, he got me excited and right after my exam on Wednesday afternoon, I begin to develop my first Windows Mobile Application. As a student, we should try everything. :p

I posted it on my facebook and twitter and it seems like it gotten some attention from my friends. Some of my friends, my classmates and friends outside, asked me whats the difference in developing a client-side application and mobile application, I will say beside the idea that should be generated is a bit different, the rest are the same. I will be covering this later.

On Thursday night, Microsoft Singapore has a Mix-It-Up event and the speaker is Chris as well. Went down and listen what he has to present and what others are presenting. A group of students and 2 companies presented their product. I am really impressed by what the students and HNL had done. =)

Let me point out some of the differences here.

1. The normal application we are developing on VS08, we normally use .Net framework 3.5 but for a windows mobile application, we use .Net Compact framework 3.5 ( http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/.NET_Compact_Framework )

2. Can we develop a silverlight application on Windows Mobile since silverlight is cross platform? At the moment, its a no. I believe something is coming out soon though ( After doing a search on bing, http://www.brighthand.com/default.asp?newsID=13870 )

3. I am developer, what is the link to Windows Mobile Marketplace?
http://developer.windowsmobile.com/Marketplace.aspx?wa=wsignin1.0

4. Where can I find applications which I can buy for my Windows Mobile phone?
http://www.microsoft.com/windowsmobile/catalog/cataloghome.aspx

5. I want to start developing. Where is the SDK?
http://www.microsoft.com/downloads/details.aspx?familyid=06111A3A-A651-4745-88EF-3D48091A390B&displaylang=en
You might want to have a look at the toolkit as well
http://www.microsoft.com/downloads/details.aspx?displaylang=en&FamilyID=20686a1d-97a8-4f80-bc6a-ae010e085a6e

Hopefully my application I am developing will be a success though I am facing some difficulties now. =)

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On 14th July, I had my first operation at Mount Alvernia done by Dr Tho Kan San, great doctor! Did ACL reconstruction with Lateral Meniscus and Medial Meniscus repair. They graft my hamstring tendon. My knee is locked with a brace at 0 degree. This means I cant bend my knee at all.

On 15th July (1 day after op), got discharge and started to learn how to use 2 crutches to walk.

On 17th July (3 days after op), appointment with the doctor, bandage is taken out.

On 25th July (11 days after op), appointment with the doctor, remove stitches, brace unlocked and I can allowed to bend my knee up till 30 degree. I need to achieve 90 degrees in 2 weeks.
Went for first psyhio, they ice my leg and use a machine to “wake up” my thigh muscle. I am allowed to walk with 1 crutches but not recommended yet.

On 27th July (13 days after the op), appointment with psyhiotheraphist, allowed to bend my knee till 40 degree. They ice my leg and use the machine to wake up my quad again. Today’s “voltage” is very very strong. I can walk SLOWLY without any help and can bend up to 40 degree + a bit.

On 1st August (18 days after the op), appointment with psyhiotheraphist, allowed to bend my knee till 70 degree. They never ice my leg anymore but they use the machine to wake up my quad. Voltage seems normal today. I am asked to stretch my hamstring on the bed and on the stairs.

On 3rd August (20 days after the op), appointment with another psyhiotheraphist, Irene, because Eugene is on MC. Started different, started by asking me to bend my knees and train my quad. She realised that my extension is not zero yet which means need to work on it by contracting my quad. Then use the machine to wake up my muscle, voltage is super low today. She then did a measurement and it is 80 degree now.

On 8th August (25 days after the op), appointment with psyhiotheraphist, Eugene again. Started with the wake up machine treatment then this time round, first time got a heat treatment that he ask me to lie on my stomach and he place something hot at the back on my knee. Train some basic gym which he asked me to use 2 legs to push the weights (30) and do some balancing on the board.

On 14th August (31 days after the op), appointment with psyhiotheraphist. “Wake up machine” and heat treatment as usual then followed by doing streching for my hamstring. The doctor asked me to do the weight again. It is increased to 40 this time. I also do left and right, front and back balancing.

On 15th August (32 days after the op), appointment with specialist, Dr Tho and pshiotheraphist, Eugene. Dr Tho checked my leg and said the ACL is very stable now and my knee is very solid now. Went to find Eugene next. Did the extact same thing as what I did on 14th August, except that the weight is now increased to 55.

On 19th August (36 days after the op), appointment with Eugene. Did all the same things again except that I am doing bike now as well (9). It helps in my bending.

On 26th August (43 days after the op), appointment with Eugene Keng. Went with Jun An. Did all the same things this time. I am doing the bike as well (6). He also asked me to train the weight using one weight and now I am at 20 for my right leg already. He asked me to do 30 but I cant.

Will continue to update!