Lim Guo Hong

To start off, i decided to post this on my blog because lesser people will view it. Else people will always comment my facebook too emo.

Recently someone’s mother whom i know passed away, i wanted to attend the wake yet I cant due to family belief of chinese 19 years old cannot go red/white event. ( Wedding - red / funeral - white ). So I have to ask someone else to give the “white silver” (Bai Jin). In fact, i had an heated arugment with my mum because of this getting me very pissed and upset.

Due to the death of his mother, I have been requested to take his classes cause he cant help to instruct. I tried my best to shift my schedule around already so I can help him, taking his classes. But I cant take his Monday afternoon class because of my commitement in school and I cant miss anymore lessons in school. I have already tried my best to help and assist. Just because I cant help on Monday afternoon class, i was called being “unloyal” to my brother. I was wondering what is wrong when I have already tried my best? The comment from him is a simple comment and totally mean no harm but sometimes I was thinking, whatever you have done for others can just be spoilt by just 1 “wrong” action of yours? I know it hurts when it lost a parent, in fact, i got very emotional because he lost his mum. Ask my classmate, I have been abnormal in school today. I even almost had an arugment because of that.

I cant accept a fact when someone lost their parents because I myself who is very very weak is very scare that the same thing will happen to me. I am weak, period. I am just learning how to accept life. I am scare i will lost my parents too. Maybe just because of my “wrong” action, if my parents passed away, no one will help me and the worse, i am alone. I don’t know.. I have this feeling. If my parents passed away, I am not gonna tell anyone? I don’t know..

In sumamry, i am just thinking, just a wrong action of yours, can result in all the trust you have built to be gone?

I just recieve a message from someone who is very close to me. I knew what is going to happen since 3 months back but I didn’t feel much then but now when i got the message from her, a happy message… I feel sad, i never feel so sad for a long time already. I wanted to hide my feeling in front of my classmates but this time round, i cant.. i just cant put a persona anymore.

She is someone who is not even blood related to me. My sister. I don’t know, but what i know now is that i cannot afford to lose someone who is close to me..Sometimes when I am feeling sad and down, she is one of the first person i can talk to without any barrier. Haiz, I am going to miss this sister of mine. The feeling isn’t good. She is going for 4-8 years.. I know we can still contact and talk to each other through skype, msn but the feeling seriously.. Awww really feel sucky

Wishing her all the best when she is in Aus.

Haha, it seems like my fujistu laptop needs to go hospt. The plastic holding the screen, cracked. Can still use la. Just that i know, the longer i wait, the worse it will get. Maybe at the same time, i need to tell the person to change the keyboard and the fan as well… Sometimes not working well. But first I need to find a few days I have no project.

Haiz… HAHA

My planning will be ruined if i add this in but I have the urge to learn Human Resource Management out of a sudden. I will borrow books from library and learn but will I have the time?

p.s: After having a long talk this morning, i guess sometimes it was really misunderstanding uncleared which in result causes more misunderstanding. Was glad I had the chance to clear up some stuffs. Oh yea, i pretty had a good sleep last night.. Its been so long since I had one.

I guess that would be the way though it could be very weird and it might not reach the effect. If it does passed the first wave, would the second wave be successful?

This is an interesting video.

For some of you who are closer to me, you should know I am very very sick the last few days. Thanks for your concern, I am much better now. The night before, I think I got food poisoning, keep vomiting and suddenly my calfs and hands cramp fo 4-5 hours… like “yang dian feng”… siao one la.. heng matthew not staying at my house that day, if not he will go siao. if you around to see i like that, you will be scared to death. My mother wanted to call 995 but dunno why in the end didn’t.

then feel pretty weak even until now… 3 days liao… low blood pressure. Didn’t go school for 2 days liao.

After I went to the interoperability day by Microsoft today, i went back home and realise my mother not at home. I was lazy to bring my keys out. LOL.called her then she said she will rushed back then i waiting at my void deck. When i was waiting, i feel very xin ku because i have alot problem breathing then i see her come back from opp my house from NTUC…she was quite “small” because she was quite far away but i know its her from her umberalla and shirt then i see her, dunno la.. hair white white then walk abit like also breathless.. i was thinking she need more care than me or i need more care than her. That day during my whole body cramp. they are taking good care of me and they never sleep for the whole night.. of cos they cant sleep. LOL I was so noisy. LOL. well, they are old 57 and 59…. how long will they still be around… sia la.. i scare i emo again… LOOOLL

I got some comments that my blog looks like a website. Haha, guess i shall make it more like a blog then.

MSP meeting

We had our monthly meeting again at Microsoft Singapore’s office at One Marina Boulvard. I was late because I had to teach wushu in the morning. When I arrived, Chun Siong was presenting something with Visual Studio which I shall not reveal and out of 3 demos, he had done, 1 fail but neverthless its a great session for us all and the last demo that he did proved to us that Int32 works/runs/does faster than Int16 or Int64.

Coming up next is the SMUs and TPs presenting the 2 events that we had done respectively, Experience it with Windows 7 and IE 8 ( if i recall correctly ) and MSP Boot Camp. SMUs also talked about something like clean the toilet campaign which attracted a good amount of people.

Next Zi Han present to us 2 applications that he did, one in WPF ( Windows Presentation Foundation ) and the other in Silverlight and he got me inspired to learn Silverlight but I am pretty busy at the moment so I guess I need to look at it only after week 0.

As usual, we have Pizza! This time, we have Mr Gates face on the Pizza boxes, too bad i have no chance to post the picture because it seems like I cant get my Windows 7 to work with my incoming bluetooth. =(… My outgoing one works. Anyway, yea and we had a little event-game just before we leave… We have to plan for Stanely’s birthday. Haha.

Another thing that I took away today, 3 things, if you are able to sell any of the 3 things, you will be able to get a job ( supposely ).

1. Sell products
2. Sell ideas
3. Sell yourself

Outing with Matthew and Jun An

We had a very sudden outing which we planned just one day before the event. Just happen to meet Matthew when I am at Raffle Places MRT with Bee Siew so well, we go to SomerSet together and met Jun An there.. Wah Raining wor. Play LAN, DOTA where Matthew keep killing Neutral Creeps and I “play” the game. Well I am lousy in doat so basically, indirectly, Matthew is controlling my character. Haha. Then played a bit Arcade to pass time before going to Movie.

Went to watch Mall Cop, its funny till siao..Its nice.
Had some dinner. Walked to Suntech and Arcade abit then go home liao.

Matthew and I had a promise on something. Lets hope it will come true!
*Before anyone says its lame to promise by using fingers at this age, i tell you, its not! =) Small things like that works better people it could reassure the people that no empty promise is made because its carved into the person’s mind.

On a side note, Happy Birthday Ryan!!!

I have upgraded my wordpress but it seems like I get a lot of errors in my admin panel. I have to leave my house soon. Seems like I can look into it 2-3 days later after my exam. Haiz.

Happy New Year everyone!